The reason why I want/need to lose weight, thought I would share that, since that's usually exactly what I am thinking about as I walk in the evenings or if I want to eat an off limits food.
First and most important is that I need to get healthier and be able to see my kids grow up, and be more active and play with them, there have been so many times that they want to do something that we just can't do since I am not able, and I know one day they'll want to go to an amusement park, definitely something I can't do, having to have a seat belt extender each time I get on a ride is just beyond embarrassing, I want to be a mom who can have fun with her kids, I want them to have happy memories of their childhood, not well we could not do this because mom could not go, or anything like that. I also want to teach them to not have this insane relationship that I do with food, I had an eating disorder for several years, and then once I stopped that it's like I just ate and ate, just far too much self hating going on there and I hate feeling this way, and I never want my kids to feel this way about themselves, I want them to be happy and confident men one day, so I have to make this change permenent!!!!
I am not saying that I don't also dream of just being smaller because I would feel better about myself, I can't lie, I do dream of what it would be like to be able to wear clothes from the regular womens section of any given store and not the plus size section, I would love to not have a double chin, I would love to not feel like people are completely replused by me, I know I will never be skinny, but I am hoping to one day be allot less plus size than I am now, and maybe just maybe be happy with the person that I am.
These are some of the random thoughts that go through my head as I am making sure I get my 10,00 steps in each day on my pedometer
Thanks for reading
First and most important is that I need to get healthier and be able to see my kids grow up, and be more active and play with them, there have been so many times that they want to do something that we just can't do since I am not able, and I know one day they'll want to go to an amusement park, definitely something I can't do, having to have a seat belt extender each time I get on a ride is just beyond embarrassing, I want to be a mom who can have fun with her kids, I want them to have happy memories of their childhood, not well we could not do this because mom could not go, or anything like that. I also want to teach them to not have this insane relationship that I do with food, I had an eating disorder for several years, and then once I stopped that it's like I just ate and ate, just far too much self hating going on there and I hate feeling this way, and I never want my kids to feel this way about themselves, I want them to be happy and confident men one day, so I have to make this change permenent!!!!
I am not saying that I don't also dream of just being smaller because I would feel better about myself, I can't lie, I do dream of what it would be like to be able to wear clothes from the regular womens section of any given store and not the plus size section, I would love to not have a double chin, I would love to not feel like people are completely replused by me, I know I will never be skinny, but I am hoping to one day be allot less plus size than I am now, and maybe just maybe be happy with the person that I am.
These are some of the random thoughts that go through my head as I am making sure I get my 10,00 steps in each day on my pedometer
Thanks for reading
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