Mini Goal met, new Goal

I have not only made my first small goal, but surpassed it, I wanted to have lost 40 pounds by the time we leave for the beach, and I have actually lost 42 pounds as of today :) I weighted in this morning at 289 lbs so I am so happy!!! my next goal is to get to 250 by the first of the new year which I think is quite doable!

small update

Well I need to give an update I guess, and it's a good one, I am under 300 pounds now, at my last weigh in I was 293 lbs which I am very happy with, I have lost 38 pounds right now and I hope to loose allot more. My goal for this month is to get down to 285 by the end of the month, I would prefer to get down to 280 but I will be happy with 285 since that will be over 40 pounds lost.

Updated Pictures

Ok here are some updated pics and I put them side by side to compare them so it's easier to see the difference, I am amazed, I can even see a difference

another day, another 10,000 plus steps

Today was a hard day as workouts go, but I am so proud of myself, it was raining here and it did not appear to be going to let up, usually I would have taken that as a sign to just take a day off, but instead I went out and still did my walking in the rain, not only did I get my 10,000 steps in but I actually got over 14,000 steps in today, I am tired, but feel so accomplished, I know I can lose this weight and keep it off

update

Well I am a bit late posting this, but on Friday I went back to my diet doctor for a weigh in and checkup and am so happy to report that I have lost 21 pounds in the first month, this is the most weight I have been able to lose in years and the best I have felt in a long time.  My goal this month is to lose at least 11 pounds if not a bit more, I hope for more but I really want to lose at least 11 pounds, then I would be under 300 pounds for the first time in over five years and that would be an absolute dream for me.



My doctor did tell me I need to increase my protein intake which i am going to try and work on, but that will be difficult for me being as I don't like most meats. I also have to have follow up bloodwork in september to make sure that my blood sugar is looking better mostly because I am in the pre diabetic ranges right now, I am just hoping that my eating healthier and losing weight will help to put my blood sugar back where it should be.

Will have updated pictures soon, just have to wait for my husband to be home and take them, he is working today

The Reason why

The reason why I want/need to lose weight, thought I would share that, since that's usually exactly what I am thinking about as I walk in the evenings or if I want to eat an off limits food.
First and most important is that I need to get healthier and be able to see my kids grow up, and be more active and play with them, there have been so many times that they want to do something that we just can't do since I am not able, and I know one day they'll want to go to an amusement park, definitely something I can't do, having to have a seat belt extender each time I get on a ride is just beyond embarrassing, I want to be a mom who can have fun with her kids, I want them to have happy memories of their childhood, not well we could not do this because mom could not go, or anything like that. I also want to teach them to not have this insane relationship that I do with food, I had an eating disorder for several years, and then once I stopped that it's like I just ate and ate, just far too much self hating going on there and I hate feeling this way, and I never want my kids to feel this way about themselves, I want them to be happy and confident men one day, so I have to make this change permenent!!!!
I am not saying that I don't also dream of just being smaller because I would feel better about myself, I can't lie, I do dream of what it would be like to be able to wear clothes from the regular womens section of any given store and not the plus size section, I would love to not have a double chin, I would love to not feel like people are completely replused by me, I know I will never be skinny, but I am hoping to one day be allot less plus size than I am now, and maybe just maybe be happy with the person that I am.

These are some of the random thoughts that go through my head as I am making sure I get my 10,00 steps in each day on my pedometer
Thanks for reading

Another day

I have been so busy today, first we went grocery shopping, which takes a bit longer now since I tend to read all the labels to be sure that what I am getting is actually healthy and low fat. Once we got home I worked in my garden some, planted some scallots, another tomato, and weeded and hoed my garden, does not sound like much but it was exhausting. I then did the rest of my walking to get to my 10,000 steps on my pedometer, so it has been a great day and I feel so good knowing I definitely got my workout in plus some